5-20-18 Real?

Real?

What’s real, well, one thing that comes to mind is, whatever it is I am suffering from seems   pretty real. It is however relatively real. I need to know that it is my choice to suffer, Pain and conflict will be present in my life, and when I can accept that, really accept that I will have painful situations, I do not need to suffer.

There is one truth, that is divided into two aspects: a truth of worldly convention and an ultimate or spiritual truth. Without a foundation in the worldly truth, (stuff happens), the significance of the ultimate cannot be taught. Without understanding the significance of the spiritual, (this is an experience I am having, it is not who I am), the worldly cannot be understood correctly and liberation from suffering is not achieved. We are spiritual beings having a human experience.

Being aware is simple, and quite easy to do, it’s easy to complicate it, but it’s very simple in practice. The more our consciousness is developed and gets closer to the source, the greater the spiritual is present and the major factor in our lives. From emotions arise fixations, which are what WE want or don’t want through logic and past behaviors demanding to be in charge.      

AND NOW, is a phrase I use many times a day, wherever I am, whatever I am doing, especially if I am feeling tension, to continually bring me back to the present.

What reality in your life brings you suffering or limits you from reaching your goals and your dreams? Your life may be a false movie you create, or it can be a continual expansion, to bring together, the spiritual and the worldly.

I think a spiritual journey is not so much a journey of discovery. It’s a journey of recovery. It’s a journey of uncovering your own inner nature. It’s already there. Billy Corgan

It is through gratitude for the present moment that the spiritual dimension of life opens up.

Eckhart Tolle

My addiction taught me that anything I try to manufacture out of fear or desire will come 

crashing down, causing suffering to me and to others. I can continue to manufacture my reality using less obvious addictions, mainly letting the ego run the show. I want this, I don’t want that, I judge this, and will fix that. I can constantly take action on getting my way, or avoiding difficulties, and feeling undeserving or better than, and I will still be spiritually bankrupt, and wonder why I am STILL suffering. 

One place I see clearly my grasping, is when “I PLAN” to do something, and it does not work out like I planned, and I am frustrated. I form resentments and mull over it, which destroys my present moment and the future. My plan of what I am going to do, what others need to do and how the universe needs to cooperate in MY plans, does not seem to be very real when I actually look at it.

I can get up to get a glass of water and the doorbell rings, and I am upset that my plan is not working. Starting to accept small changes is an important way to bring the spiritual into my life.

If I am able to breathe, when MY plan is not happening and accept what is happening, I will be able to move forward with peace and a better understanding of what would be best to do next.

When I can treat others and myself with a sense of sacred space and acceptance, with dignity and wisdom, I relax into a higher plane while I am also engaged in the world. Gently, with strength.

Keeping it simple is helpful and essential. First we need to be Aware of how we act. This comes about through training our minds to Pay Attention, – through meditation, and consciously feeling what we are doing, all the time. This may seem like a lot of work to always be attentive to what you are feeling and doing, but it comes more naturally as you practice it. What we are more used to is not paying attention, of letting other forces determine our lives. When we are aware we have the ability to make choices, as opposed to being mindlessly engaged in old destructive habits. 

It is important that we stop engaging in our addiction, but equally important is what we choose to engage in. To honestly commit to a recognition, acceptance and dismantling of our delusions and partake in life as it truly exists. To take affirmative mindful actions that engage us in life, connect us to our inner strength, wisdom and calmness, to the world and to other people.

When we can control our anger, our fear of life, our resentments or need to push life away, and replace it with a responsible action we gain so much; we are on the right path with our head held higher and our vision seeing much more. 

We all need to consistently attend to and refresh our spirituality, and our larger connection, and our physical environment. We all need to eat and exercise in order to feel good. How we choose our food and our exercise will determine how we feel. Big Macks and no exercise will make us feel crappy. We also need to be attentive to our environment. Is our living space kept up in a reasonable way? Do we engage with people that are healthy and nourishing? Do we complain a lot, or try to be grateful and open?

Do we pursue our spiritual program? Go to meetings, meditate, pray? Work on taking our       spiritual life into our everyday life? Begin to replace our negative judgement of ourselves with a loving kindness? Whatever we promote will be more present. That is reality.

When we begin to believe in ourselves, to trust ourselves, we begin to blossom. We blossom by being more content, and recognizing the suffering of others and doing what we can to be of   benefit to them. Helping others, not fixing them, is when we are out of ourselves and 

experiencing our true natures. The reality of the spiritual and worldly working together.

How do you fill your bucket? One drop at a time.                                                                         The journey of a thousand miles begins with one step.                                                              “The great arises out of small things that are honored and cared for.

”Heart Of Recovery web site    fcheartofrecovery.com