10-29-17 The Depth of Presence

The Depth of Presence

How often am I not present? How often am I somewhere else, thinking of what was, what will be and how will others see me? How do I get what I want or how do I avoid what I don’t want?

Examine to see how feelings come and go, how thoughts come and go. Don’t be attached to anything. Just be mindful of whatever there is to see. This is the way to the truth. Be natural. Everything you do in your life is a chance to practice. It is all truth. When you do your chores, try to be mindful. If you are emptying the trash or cleaning a toilet. If you are speaking to someone, or listening. When you pick up a pen, smile, because you were fully in the knowing and present, in picking up the pen. You felt your hand move, you saw the pen, you felt your fingers close on the coolness of the pen. You felt the weight and texture of the pen. Now write with the pen, experiencing the same presence in your writing. Don’t feel you are practicing only when sitting still, cross-legged.

When you get upset at traffic, or forgetting something, take a deep breath and try being Present for the tension you are feeling. You may laugh when you realize you are feeling entitled to a perfect, pain free, everything should go my way, life.

No matter how long or how hard you practice, wisdom will not arise from desire. So, simply let go. Watch the mind and body mindfully but don’t try to achieve anything.
Refrain from evil and do good, live simply keeping to basic needs, purify the mind. That is, be watchful of our mind and body in all postures: sitting, standing, walking or lying, know yourself. So here we have the complete practice of the Buddha:

“Hold every moment sacred. Give each clarity and meaning, each the weight of thine awareness, each its true and due fulfillment.” —Thomas Mann,

Those who have not found their true wealth, which is the radiant joy of being and the deep, unshakable peace that comes with it, are beggars, even if they have great material wealth. They are looking outside for scraps of pleasure or fulfillment, for validation, security or love, while they have a treasure within that not only includes all those things, but is infinitely greater than anything the world can offer. Tao Te Ching

The present is this exact moment. The present goes beyond words and actions. It is you communicating with you.
Presence is not about attaining or doing something, it is about letting everything else go, and feeling the moment and knowing what is happening, through not knowing.

Do not hold being present too firmly or seriously, a sense of effort may be necessary at first, but presence should be open, and with a sense of joy. A person with a sense of joy may confuse some, but they are not confused.

In my addiction I was always trying to control and manipulate in order to get what I wanted, or to avoid what I did not want to face, to a rather absurd point. There was no
sense of true presence or mindfulness in my life. Today I can still be consumed by what I want, do not want, or fear, which always takes me away from fully being in reality.
We are so,so,so, used to being anywhere except the present that we need to have a discipline to continually bring ourselves back to the NOW.

Today, as I work with the simplicity of being aware, mindful and present, I feel a growth. I can sometimes feel a sense of not wanting to make the effort to be present, and that is ok. But it is not ok, to not work on growing up. I do not permit myself to continously dwell away from the richness of NOW by the lure of the entertainment of — poor me, or — if only, or — lets watch this mindless movie of many shorts in my head.
True presence is very powerful and very soft. This will enrich and inform our lives.

When we quit trying to get what we want, or avoid what we do not want, we will begin to receive what we really need.
Learn to breathe deeply, relax and be present. Do this many times every day.

Our past difficulties have been based on a reward system. As in, I do not want to be present for reality so I will do a drug or a behavior to get a temporary reward of
avoidance. This is never enough, so we need more and more. Eventually we crash.
We can begin to train ourselves in a new reward system. That of a deeper positive uplifted sense of being and presence.

When we are Present, we can feel the dishonesty in any action and we learn to seek the reward of facing reality with gentleness and honesty for ourselves and others. We learn to not re-act, but to consider and act well. When we feel the reward of being authentic and present, we quit looking for a reward, and it becomes a way of LIFE.

Presence is the realm of not-knowing. Although it can be frightening to be this transparent to life, we now have the resources with which to welcome fear, to be present for it, and to transform it through our awareness. In this way we break the habitual patterns that we have used to defend ourselves against feeling fear. This is how we heal.
Enlightenment is not separate from our everyday life. It is nothing special. With this kind of open and spacious awareness, we are complete, and this moment is complete. This kind of mind is like clouds in the sky, water flowing, a light wind; nothing obstructs it.”
Joan Halifax Rosh

“You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself any direction you choose. You’re on your own. And you know what you know. And YOU are the one who’ll decide where to go…” ? Dr. Seuss,

How do you fill your bucket? One drop at a time.
The journey of a thousand miles begins with one step.
“The great arises out of small things that are honored and cared for.”
Heart Of Recovery web site — fcheartofrecovery.com